| public entry 203 |
[Dec. 12th, 2009|02:09 am] |
it's very interesting seeing how my friends (physically) view me.
last night i was talking to one of my best friends from high school, and i said something like, "well. i've always been a fattie, i always will be." and he stopped me and said "claire, you're not fat. you're curvy in all the right places. you have a beautiful body." and it was just really sweet and very motivating. i have had a few people tell me this year "you're not fat" even though i CLEARLY AM. i have chub and flab and stretchmarks and cellulite. i don't have a problem with it. i am 'plus size'. in the past, i have viewed 'being fat' as a bad thing, but i've started accepting my body this year. 2009 has been kind of sucky at points, but i wouldn't change it for the world... because it MEANS the world that i am starting to really love myself. all of myself. earlier today, there was a post on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) topicless asking something along the lines of, "how do you feel about yourself? do you like you?" and SO MANY PEOPLE said "no, i dislike myself" and that made me so sad. because if i can love myself and i am super flawed, then... why can't they? i love every single pound of myself. i love my face. i love my personality. i love my hair. i love my fingernails. i love my soft belly. i love my jiggly thighs. i love my varying laugh. i love my sneezes. i love my love. i wish i could make everyone else feel the same way about themselves. no one should ever feel hateful about who they are. :[ i think something that's improved my overall view of myself are blogs. self love blogs. fat blogs. ones like fatshionista, ilovefat, thetummyproject, and fuckyeahchubbygirls. being fat doesn't equal being ugly. and ugliness is fictional, because beauty really is skin deep. personalities can be incredibly attractive. so f yeah, i think i'm hot. thanks, 2009, for making me feel awesome. |
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| public entry 202 |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|06:23 pm] |
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okay, so i am eavesdropping on my parents right now (i can't help it! they're only one room away and my door is open!) and it's almost making me cry. my dad is saying such nice things about me. :'] |
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